Why growing older is so yummy.
OK I can’t believe I’m going to tell you this. But you know me… Miss Transparent. So I’ve always been attracted to older men. They seemed to fill that damsel in distress part of me I didn’t want to admit was there. They seemed to make that scared part of me inside who wished to exhale, to feel held; like someone had my back… they seemed to be able to provide that.
I was wrong of course; age doesn’t have anything to do with that. It’s my own WORK on the inside to have my own back, to surrender to the Universe having my back. And once I did that, age no longer mattered. My age or his age.
And I even started to feel MORE beautiful, more vibrant and sexy than when I was young. I adore my body now instead of judge it, I celebrate my erotic creature now instead of hide her. I am present to the magnificent courageous perfectly imperfect self I am with kindness now, instead of being abusive to myself. I am willing to receive now as much pleasure as possible, even if it makes me uncomfortable… instead of say no to complements, kindness or generosity like when I was young and afraid I either didn’t deserve it or afraid they’d take it away and leave me abandoned.
So most recently I’ve attracted a stunning gentleman, grounded and conscious, handsome and kind, generous and up to something fabulous with his life, who thinks I’m super cool and I smile like in high school when he calls me beautiful… and let’s just say he’s over 10 yrs. younger. WTF? Yes. Something happens where age dissolves into nothing, energy takes over, exuberance meets enthusiasm, purity meets truth, yummy essence meets erotic nature… age is so not even a consideration or even noticeable in this reality.
So if I wanted to attract someone who was shallow, superficial or simply desired only a cellulite free bottom, or wrinkle free face… then I guess getting older wouldn’t work in my favor, but given I am looking to be cherished, adored, celebrated and appreciated… and to pour my appreciation, praise, erotic sultry sacred sensuality into a noble badass fabulous man… age seems to be on my side. Just my point of view, yet given our point of view always creates what shows up in our life… not a bad idea to choose to embrace my aging… like a fine wine, better over time. xoxo>