Change in Work-Life / Income ~ A Penny or A Million: Both Require Expansion
I always thought I knew why my beloved hasn’t shown up yet. I mean I’m an Intimacy Expert for crying out loud, I should know these things.
I’ve decided it was because I hadn’t healed from my father (now healed- check) or because I wasn’t getting along with my son’s father (now getting along- check) or because I’m working all the time (life balanced- check) or that it wasn’t MY TIME (vedic astrology says it’s time- check).
I even thought for a brief moment I should have it all together financially (still paying off debt from divorce/selling house as market crashed, yet doing quite well financially now).
So it wasn’t until working with my last coach (Ruby Bedi of Inlighten Global Awakening) and doing a recent interview that I saw how a change in work-life/income is at play here.
First, she gave me an exercise for 7 days to only do what I had previously promised to do, to not take on any other work, and to imagine and enjoy NOT working. To imagine that I had a magnificent husband to support me and telling my audience that I was taking a two year sabbatical to finally enjoy motherhood and being a wife to it’s fullest … to love God and the Universe through my man and my child; to meditate on this, visualize this, and really LIVE for 7 days as if this is so.
One would think that might be easy, divine, delicious, right?
OMG it was Hell!
SO many self-worth issues came up! We normally think that a change of income when we have LESS money is challenging … are we valuable because the value of our bank account went down … can we find happiness with dinner as canned soup vs. a five course gourmet meal?
I had no idea that self-worth issues are DESERVING to be supported with a change of work life for the better! I sat with not having to work, but choosing to write if I wished. I sat with what would my man think of me unless I produced a result? What would the world think of me if I lived a cushy existence? Did they only love me because I’ve suffered and continue to drive myself to the bone working so hard to ‘serve’ them? (I say ‘serve’ for can we really ever serve from empty?)
While visualizing giving my gifts to the world through loving my son and husband, I realized how many of my actions were still driven by my looking good and receiving recognition for making a difference. I questioned my deserving of support JUST BECAUSE I EXIST.
(which of course is what I teach people to feel … ‘Feel enough, feel delicious, just because you exist” I would tout. Time to walk your talk, sister!!!)
And so at the end of 7 days I had opened myself up to a new level of deserving, of balance, authenticity and power of choice no matter what my level of income, my level of support in my work life.
Second, I interviewed Arielle Ford who shared about her soul mate story. (www.allanapratt.com/soulmate) This was for my weekly Intimate Conversations Series where I promote experts, authors, spiritual leaders … and yet today I was bold and declared at the beginning that I was having a breakthrough. That this interview was held by God/Intelligence/Consciousness for my highest good and the good of all. I asked Arielle so many questions beneath the questions to get to the core of how she did it.
How did she manifest her soul mate?
Here was the statement that woke me up … her answer was, “I asked for someone who made me the center of his Universe.”
Now, I coach hundreds of men to NEVER do that. A woman should never be your purpose, she can FUEL your purpose, but you’ll be pussy whipped (can I say that?) if you give your legacy/purpose/passion energy to her.
What I DIDN’T see is that’s not what she meant.
She went on to explain that her man had done the huge business stuff and had decided it was time to have his purpose to help people, to uplift humanity. Supporting Arielle is one of the ways he does this.
SO WAIT A MINUTE!
I nurture my son, my clients, my business, my friends etc. all day … and honestly want someone to support me, help with Gabe, come into my office and bring me a snack, text me to take a 10 minute walk in the grass barefoot, make passionate love to me twice a day, join me on business trips, go off on men-trips while I have Goddess adventures, be savvy and interested in my business, help guide my highest choices for my purpose, be big and strong and a safe haven to land in, around to hear me, share life with me, run me a bath, remind me how pleasure nourishes my soul, be on the ball with my business manager, support me financially so I don’t have to coach such a full practice, remind me if it’s not a hell yes, it’s a hell no, and guide my highest evolution as a Soul to serve humanity, relationships and families.
And today, with my cat on my right and my dinner plate on the left, typing to you, oh magnificent friend, I officially give myself permission to have my soul mate be devoted to me, that in so doing I trust he’ll be more fully living his own purpose … and I’m letting God figure out ALL the details.
And so a change in work-life/income I’m ready to embrace, dissolve my illusions, heal my sense of deserving and welcome to my existence for the highest good of all is welcoming … support … delicious, luscious, beyond my dreams, blow my mind … support … where I truly see who I am … operating not only on full … but on overflow, rippling my passion, love, writing, videos, speeches, interviews etc. from the foundation of soul mate relationship.
And while I’m waiting, to gratefully focus on all the soul mate relationships I do have, unconditional love, affinity and pleasure with my son, best friends, even some close clients … savoring profound connection, beauty, adventure into the unknown, enthusiastic to share with you his arrival, grateful for every step of my evolution that brought me to this moment.
You are so loved,
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