Whew!!! What a year!! I really got tested to see challenges as opportunities! I know sometimes things need to fall apart to be put back together. One friend said I didn’t need a tune up, I needed a whole new engine. I admittedly was scared and hid for a while, then I was a whiner and victim, then I finally surrendered, rolled up my sleeves and asked for help, with humility. Then the miracles began to shower. I am not out of the woods yet financially and I’m not yet crystal clear on what will work in my career, and yet I have attracted outstanding mentors, support, guidance and direction. I am working smarter not harder, I am willing to let go of my position and yield to what’s best for all. Perhaps I’m growing up?
Gabe IS growing up to be a sensational boy. He’s stubborn and knows what he wants. He’s empathic and sensitive to other’s needs and feelings. He’s exuberant and loves people. He’s into drawing, coloring and most recently playing with string to makes cat’s cradle and the witches broom which he literally gets on and rides around the room. Occasionally I have him on a Wed. night when I do my MomTV LIVE webcast “Permission for Pleasure.” He dances with me at the end… loving his mama who’s a ham. I am blessed.
In my career, I’m proud to say I was on E! this year, Braveheart TV, Fox 5 morning news twice (once carried in on the shoulders of men in toga’s), I’ve spoken to various women’s groups, created an international Sweepstakes with my new friend Rolonda, launched a Sexy, Soulful & Rich 36 Week Collection, been interviewed on many radio shows from Arkansas to Milan, and my sweet little eBook/audio book actually sold 287 copies online to women from Iceland, UK, New Zealand, Holland, Japan, Italy, Tehran, Costa Rica, Germany, Australia, Canada (eh?), and the US. Global Sisterhood.
It really moves me to get their emails and know that I’ve touched their lives. The emails tend to come on a day when I’m in tears and really need a boost to keep going. Life as an entrepreneur is fraught with daily failures. It’s taken all I’ve got to stop, pull back, witness, tweak, correct, adjust, then reenter into my heart and soul and give my message with love and faith. And while I haven’t made it big yet or found the economic engine that really supports Gabe and I to the lifestyle I choose, I AM on my way and I know I’ll get there. It’s inevitable. I’m actually learning to love the process more than the goal.
Thank you to all who have supported me through my dark night (s!) of the soul, who have supported me financially, emotionally, physically, spiritually. Thank you to those who take my calls when I’m in tears, who give your advice and insights, who remind me that I don’t HAVE to do this, I GET to do this and to keep going and learn what I need to learn to have a life of wealth, health, happiness and peace. I wish YOU every success imaginable, a full and overflowing heart of joy, delight for being alive, and gratitude that moves you to tears. You mean the world to me, I Thank God that you have graced and blessed my life. You love is so nourishing and you are such an extraordinary gift to the planet. Thank you. I love you.
Allana & Gabe