When I look back at the year we had a really good time.
Gabe is delicious and he expands me daily to be more patient, creative and truly INVITE him into his greatness.
He reminds me that I GET to be alive, GET to be a mom, GET to live fully… it’s my birthright… one day driving to school I said to him that Life Was Good.
Whew!!! What a year!! I really got tested to see challenges as opportunities! I know sometimes things need to fall apart to be put back together. One friend said I didn’t need a tune up, I needed a whole new engine. I admittedly was scared and hid for a while, then I was a whiner and victim, then I finally surrendered, rolled up my sleeves and asked for help, with humility. Then the miracles began to shower. I am not out of the woods yet financially and I’m not yet crystal clear on what will work in my career, and yet I have attracted outstanding mentors, support, guidance and direction. I am working smarter not harder, I am willing to let go of my position and yield to what’s best for all. Perhaps I’m growing up?
Gabe IS growing up to be a sensational boy. He’s stubborn and knows what he wants. He’s empathic and sensitive to other’s needs and feelings. He’s exuberant and loves people. He’s into drawing, coloring and most recently playing with string to makes cat’s cradle and the witches broom which he literally gets on and rides around the room. Occasionally I have him on a Wed. night when I do my MomTV LIVE webcast “Permission for Pleasure.” He dances with me at the end… loving his mama who’s a ham. I am blessed.
Went to a Tantra Evening and this was the magical singer… This is her Xmas song… HAVE YOURSELF A MERRY LITTLE XMAS….
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OK… the Holidays make me really happy. They used to make me sad when it reminded me I was single or divorced, or reminded me that my mom had died… yet now I re frame most everything into Gratitude (that of course after having GOOD cried, feeling and validating my feelings and finding the nugget of wisdom the experience brought me).